I was totally devastated when I, as a Christian had todivorce 4 and a half years ago from my christian ex husband. He left me in an exceedingly cruel and traumatic way, that we resented. But nevertheless we enjoyed him, therefore I prayed for people to have together. That never ever occurred. After my extreme grief, we felt dead, so also committing committing suicide didn’t seem sensible. I happened to be inside that is already dead.